I frighten myself

Je m'effraye

I frighten myself!

This week's fear

is that

I have not resolved

my youth.

The guilt I should have

left behind

on the beds of private concupiscence

seems ever with me as if I was sixteen.

The shame I have

is that I have not made

proper decisions

about my life.

that professing faith

I have been

faithless

that claiming love

I have been so often

loveless

it should be better

(could be worse)

I frighten myself!